2012 + 2013 resolutions

I'm starting to feel sorry for myself, which is never a good thing. 

Last night, right after I spilled my drink all over my laptop, I realised how tragic I have let myself become. 

Over the past few weeks, I have been working like crazy while everyone is out enjoying the sun and spending time with their family and friends. Not complaining about work though, it is one of the busiest times of the year in retail and I like earning money so I can blow it on unnecessary materialistic items. Regardless of how many hours I work, I still get a couple of days off work in which I can spend however I want. Except I choose to stay at home and do nothing. I have become so antisocial I don't even bother trying to contact people to hang out or sometimes even step out of the house.

I realised that I have unconsciously pushed everyone away that has tried to get to know me better, which leaves me having no close friends in Sydney. I know that if I make more of an effort this would not be a problem, but I actually quite like being alone. But still. 

The place I am staying is such a hole. For some reason, it has become dirtier and there are more insects around. Not sure if it is because of the weather, but I blame the new guy that recently moved in. Before he moved in, I had not seen any cockroaches around. Last night, I saw two. And a massive spider. I need to leave this place. Only 2 months left.

I did so horrible in my exams its not even funny. My WAM has been pushed down so much, I couldn't get into law through program transfer. If I had continued to do as well as I did in my first semester, I would've gotten in. I slacked off so much this semester, I am so disappointed in myself. But on the other hand, I was so relieved to see that I did not fail anything. Sigh, my standards have dropped so much.

Longest rant ever (you are warned)

Big talk with H the other night about a certain someone. Seems like a never-ending problem.

This wouldn't be the first time I've blogged about her. I just don't understand; why is our friendship more complicated than everyone else's? There is no doubt that we have drifted apart over the years, but there is still something that is stopping our friendship from being completely over - her grudge against me.

 For some reason, something I did in the past have made her so bitter towards me. Honestly, hearing about all this has made me quite angry. During my week back in NZ, all I did was try to be nice to her, but hearing what she has to say about me to other people just makes me even more fed up with everything.

Details, details. I am going to make a list. Though, its going to be short.

(This post may seem like a complete bitch-fest, but blogging is just my way to vent)

Formspring questions

I've decided to answer some of the questions asked to my Formspring on my blog, because, really I have nothing much to blog about. Not sure if all of these are asked by the same person on different days, but they are quite interesting.

What does it take to be a good friend?

A good friend doesn't have to be a person you spend most of your time with, doesn't have to be someone you always talk to. But a good friend is always there for you. Not necessarily physically, but when you need them, they will be there by your side. It is someone who understands your needs, your insecurities, your thoughts and opinions - someone who understands the whole you. Someone who doesn't judge you, but will stop you when you are doing something utterly stupid. They know your best qualities and accepts your flaws.   A good friend is not made overnight, and will take effort from both ends. 

Tell us the story of you being stalked?

I never know how to tell this story properly because I always get it jumbled up, and I don't even think its really 'stalking'. The only story I have of being stalked was back in Year 11 or 12 (can't really remember), but it was back when I used to take the bus in the mornings. 

I would always go out to the bus stop opposite my house at around 8:10ish. There would always be 2 or 3 other people at the bus stop, but I never really took notice of them. 

One morning like any other, I went out to my bus stop a little later than usual. There was only one other person there - a boy in AGS uniform, but I didn't see that as unusual. I stood waiting for the bus while he sat. And when the bus came, I climbed in first and sat down on the many empty seats.

He also got on the same bus and sat right in front of me. Still nothing unusual, right?

After a few minutes on the bus, he turned to me and asked, "Are you Christine Yang?" LOL wtf.

Materialistic moments.

If I had money, these are the things I would buy.

 MICHAEL Michael Kors Jet Set Travel Tote
I've been eyeing this for quite some while now, and wasn't sure whether I should get it because it is quite plain. But I saw someone carrying it the other day when I was waiting for the bus after work, and it looked so lovely! I decided I have to have it, so I'm saving up for it this summer. All those hours working at Zara better pay off! Rose said that there probably will be  Black Friday deals so I am totally going to keep an eye out for that.

 Michael Kors Runway Time Teller Watch
I don't even wear watches but isn't this beautiful! I love how its two-toned. I was actually planning to get one for myself if I felt the exam just gone went well, but since I most likely failed all of them, it looks like this will not be on my Christmas list this year. Good thing too, because I don't know how often I would wear it with. I don't have a lot of rose gold accessories.

Classic Chanel Earrings
Hi, I need you on my ears. To be honest, they aren't even super pretty or anything. I mean, they do look lovely, but I think the only reason I want it is because I want a pair of expensive earrings. Going to save up for these, but not 100% keen on buying it right at this moment. Of course if I didn't have to take money into consideration, they would already be mine.

 Prada Saffiano Lux Tote
Omg this is so beautiful! I know everyone has one, but theres a reason for that. Its such a classic looking handbag. Too bad I am poor and will not be able to afford it for a while. Saving up for this.

Celine Luggage Tote

I. Want. This. So. Badly. Omg. Its soo beautiful, I feel like I have to have it. I would have to save up for a whole freaking year if I wanted this. 2.4 grand, and by the time I do have enough money for this, would Celine's still be in trend? Who am I kidding, yes it will be. Wait for me baby.

From January, I will start saving half my pay check every fortnight. (So thats at least 300-400$ a month.) That will be the money I get to splurge on myself at the end of the year. I can do this. Yes. I have some expensive shopping habits on a regular basis anyway, but if I turn that down to a minimum, these lovely goodies will all be mine in the foreseeable future. 

I can do this. 

Hidden messages

The other night, I had a dream. I've asked a couple of people what it meant, but no one really has a clue.

In my dream, my eyes were open. I was staring at the ceiling of my bedroom here in Sydney. The same ceiling that I am under right now. I could not move my arms, or my head. All I saw was the light on the ceiling. But I could hear people talking on the left, their conversation. One of those voices was my dad's, his voice is very distinct. They weren't talking about me, just conversation in general (although I can't seem to remember what they were saying). I remember trying to turn my head, just so I could see my father's face, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't. I was so frustrated with myself.

And that's where the dream ended.

It might've meant nothing, but I've been thinking about that dream for the past couple of days.

Maybe it's telling me that I should give my parents a call.

idontknowwhatimwriting.

So it is that time again. The time where Christine leaves her assignment to the very last minute and has to pull an all nighter just to finish it. When will I ever learn?

It seems as if it is when I have an assignment due that I blog the most. 
My last business law assignment - I stayed up all night the night before also, and ended up finishing a couple of hours before it was due. I got a pretty good mark for it too.

Anyways, on to other things.
I haven't blogged in the past month, mainly because I feel like not much has happened. To be honest, I don't even know who reads my blog posts. Feel free to leave a comment to say 'hi'. I want to know who I am updating my life for :)

Last post - about the kitchen. Its still freaking disgusting. Nothing much has changed. Oh, except the lightbulb went out, so theres no light now. Not that I've been cooking recently anyway.

I lost my iPhone at the Law library. Really, who steals iPhones? Every second person has one.
Got a Samsung sII, because I felt like I didn't deserve a new iPhone, or even deserve the new iPhone 5 that was just released this week.

I finally got a job, after actively seeking for about a month. I'm working as a sales assistant for Zara, a new store that just opened at Bondi Junction this week. 
The people working there are great - there is so much diversity. There are people from all over the world, and if you know me, I looovveee accents. Spanish, Italian, French, Portuguese, British, Japanese etc. Everyone gets along so well; the working environment is actually pretty great. Its feels good to earn some extra cash and also meet interesting people at the same time.

Yeah, thats pretty much it. I lead a very boring life.

I am not your mother

If I were to write a letter to my flatmates, here is how it would go.

Dear everyone living under the same roof as I,

KEEP THE KITCHEN CLEAN OMG. 

For the past week or so, I have not been cooking my meals, and have hardly even stepped in the kitchen because it has been SO DISGUSTING. 

The bin was overflowing, and no one cared to take it out.

The floor was absolutely disgusting; I swear its only been mopped once. BY ME, LAST SEMESTER. There were lentils, onion skin, chocolate sauce (?) on the floor - NONE of which I eat.

The kitchen bench was extremely oily, why not wipe it?

The stove was filled with pots of food; probably from nights before.

There was gunk on the stove, obviously food overflowed from someone's cooking.

There were a million dishes in the sink, JUST WASH IT OMG.

First of all, you guys are grown men. CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELVES. 

Clean your dishes after you use them; DON'T LET IT PILE UP IN THE SINK.

If your pot overflows onto the stove when you cook, CLEAN IT UP AFTERWARDS.

If you miss the bin when you throw your rubbish in, PICK IT UP.

When you finish cooking, don't leave your pot unwashed on the stove. OTHER PEOPLE NEED TO USE IT TOO.

When you finish preparing your food, WIPE THE BENCH.

If some of your food falls on the floor, CLEAN IT UP.

Honestly, I don't understand why no one would clean up the kitchen. I didn't feel like it was my job because I actually have not been using it AT ALL.

But I cleaned it up anyway. I mopped the floors, took out the trash, and wiped the benches and stove. BUT I REFUSED TO WASH THE DISHES.

I AM NOT YOUR MOTHER. I DO NOT CLEAN FOR A LIVING. I WILL NOT CLEAN BECAUSE I AM A FEMALE. CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELVES!!!!

That is all.

From the youngest and the only female in the house.