Tired.

I'm sick and tired of everything.


Screw this.

Screwed.

Sunday 14 August - 02:25AM

Got home not long ago after ball.

Feet hurt. So tired.

It was fun, except I can't really remember what I did.

Those hours just seem to fly by.

This is probably the last high school ball I will ever go to (You know, unless I become a teacher or something, UGH) and I spent it with all my friends ♥

(Just a little bit of camwhoring before any ball photos go online)

I'm screwed for my internals due tomorrow. Especially History.

I've also got work in less than 7 hours. 

I guess I'm not sleeping tonight.

Extrav 2011

I have so much to say about Chinese Extrav 2011, but really, I don't know how to put it in words.

I'm not sure where to start.

So I guess I'll start with what I am part of.

This year, I was in Modern Dance and Traditional Dance, as well as being in committee.

I've been in modern dance for the third year this year, and every year I get a different feeling.

2009 - It was a new experience for me, I didn't really expect to get in. A couple of my friends were going to try out, so I decided to as well. I got in, along with Gabby, Melody, Jennifer, Jeanette, Rose and Crystal (a couple of girls also in my year). It was probably my first time performing dance on stage, and I remember being nervous. And fun. Oh, and I learnt some new phrases that some of the people in MD used, was so random.

Yeah I can't remember much about it, my memory sucks.

I guess I would describe this year as new.

2010 - FARRRR, where do I start? This year was so probably the most fun. I had pretty much all my friends in MD 2010, and for the ones that weren't my friends before, became my friends eventually. Every practice would be filled with laughs, but it wasn't totally unproductive. After every practice, we would go down to 277 food court and just sit and chill for hours. We took a million camwhore photos, and everyone's birthday was celebrated during practice. This year was definitely about the fun.

2011 - Because of the awesome job MD did the previous year, there were sooo many girls wanting to tryout. I felt quite old, most of the people this year in MD were younger. We had many practices throughout the school term, and also in the holidays. We practiced until the dances were near perfect, until the moves were drilled in our head - to ensure that we had the best performance possible. It was different from last year - we didn't take as many photos, I didn't socialise as much. The only thing I really regret is not noticing that the people in MD this year, despite being quite shy and unusually active on Facebook, were actually pretty cool. I just didn't get the chance to know them. 

This year I would say, was about dance and performance. 

Traditional dance - Peacock.

This was my first time ever joining traditional dance, its so different from modern dance! The moves weren't as fast, or strong. It was my first time trying to be graceful (LOL). It was definitely a different experience for me, and I'm glad that I joined.

Thought of green and blue makeup - CRINGE. But it actually didn't look that bad. And I loved the  peacock feathers, made us look more like birds :)

I'm gonna forget how I nearly freaking TRIPPED on stage, and just remember how everyone said that it was very graceful and elegant looking.

Posing like a peacock while doing makeup in the bathroom :)

Group photo of all my fellow peacocks

There are two sides to every story.

Sunday night of Extrav - very late night blogging.


My eyes were opened up today.
I never thought of it like that before.


I always thought I could understand different points of view, understand where different people are coming from. If people are willing to open up to me, I tend put other their problems before mine. I like to be there for the people who I care about.


But what about the people who care about me?


When I am out late, I am usually having fun, forgetting about everything other than what I am doing at that moment. I forget about my parents at home, worrying about my whereabouts.
So they call me, but I miss it. First time accidentally, second time accidentally, and the third time - on purpose. Just because you know they are pissed and that you do not want to deal with them when they are in that mood.

Tonight was no exception. It is night of the last Chinese Extravaganza I will ever perform in, it was expected that I will be late home. But not too late - there is, after all, school the next day.

Mood swings.

My mum is entering that stage - her mid-forties. 
She is stressing about anything, and everything.


This morning on the way to school, she kept nagging. 
It was getting annoying so I very NICELY asked her to stop. 
She just kept going. I don't want to go into great detail about this, but just imagine someone going on and on about how messy your room is and how you are always late to school.


What a great start to a Wednesday morning.


I thought that when I got home after school, she would be angry as well.
But when I knocked on the door, she seemed fine. She asked me whether I wanted to go out for dinner or have pizza.


Weird.


That's why I think that time for her has come.


Better just let her be.

Economical Life.

Today in class, we went over the business cycle.

  

Life is kind of like the business (trade) cycle. I would compare my life to a sine graph, or cosine graph, but I think the business cycle is more appropriate.
Where I am right now, I would call it the 'recession'. I'm not looking forward to the hole I'm about to hit, it seems like everything is going downhill from here. In 3 weeks, when school exams come, I will hit the 'trough'. I will stay in that position for another couple of months until NCEA finishes, but everything can only get better after that.

The 'expansion' or 'upswing' phase, will be the month I have in NZ - after exams and before my trip. Everything will slowly seem better, as I recover from the traumatic experience of exams. I will start having fun and then BAM, next thing you know, I'll be making my way to the airport and heading off the Asia. :)

The 'peak/boom' will be HK/THAILAND TRIP, my gosh I am super excited, super looking forward to that.
And then the cycle repeats.

Overall, the trend is rising. The cycle has troughs and peaks, but the actual growth over time slowly increases.Life is like that. It has its ups and downs, but all in all - life gets better the longer we live.

Sine/cosine graphs tend to have the same amplitude the whole way through, thats why I think the business cycle is the most appropriate. It follows a positive tangent. No one wants their life to be going nowhere.


We can sometimes expect when each cycle will be. These fluctuations aren't always random.
Some things are unavoidable, but others, we can make better. Although we cannot always be at the highest point, we can make the most out of it.

People are always saying, "Life is too short .....". BUT LIFE ISN'T SHORT.

It is the longest thing we will ever have. Might as well make the most of it.

I signed up for the Australian Mathematics Competition with Jisu today, impulsively of course. 

I think I'm starting to grab every opportunity that goes my way.

♥

Hatching.

This is the cutest thing ever  ♥

I think I might be just a little bit obsessed with turtles right now.