It is never only one person's fault

To get my mind off of certain things, I wrote this letter(ish). It doesn't make sense unless you know already. Just a warning.


Something's been on my mind lately, and it's been bothering me for a while now. I want to tell you in person, but I'm not sure how to. You probably won't even listen to me - not that you're ever around anyway.
I am writing this to get something off my chest. I don't want this to bother me anymore. By writing this, I hope that one day in the future you will stumble across it and read it with a calm and collected mind. There may be some things you won't agree with, but don't get angry, this has been my mind for quite some time.


We have been drifting apart for around two years now, I think it started around the beginning of Yr12. Last year my sister told me, "I saw ****** today, she told me you guys aren't really friends anymore because you guys don't talk." 
True, I guess. But does that mean we're not friends anymore?
(FYI:The number of stars do not represent the name of the person, I just felt like clicking Shift+8 that many times)


Anyways, that was last year. What really got me thinking was a Saturday this year, when we went to the movies together. As we were walking to 277 after the movie, you suddenly left crying because I said something that may have hurt you.


That night when the five of us had that talk, you made me feel extremely guilty. I felt like I had been a really bad friend. You opened up, about how you thought things aren't the same, how we all aren't as close anymore.


But when I went home and thought about it, it seemed like you blamed us for the deterioration of our friendship. Yes, maybe we were at fault, but so were you. Both parties need to be pulling the same weight for it to work. Otherwise, one side will get tired of making all the effort.

They grow up so fast

Its extremely funny watching a group of ladies about to hit their mid-life crises making kissy faces at a 6 month old baby.


The other day I went Yum Char with my mum for the first time in ages (because she guilt tripped me). 
My baby cousin Lachlan was there also.


He is usually very shy, and does not like to be separated from his mum (unless you distract him with a shiny silver necklace)
But that day, he decided to be more social.


HE IS SO CUTE OMG.

♥

Pig Sty?

I decided to have a big clean out, and throw away my old stuff.


This is how my room looks like now:

(I reconstructed the hearts on my wall cus they were falling apart)

I've never been a really tidy, or organised type of person. But it works for me. I can find things easier this way. Sometimes.

I'm a bit of hoarder. I don't like to throw things out, just in case it would come in handy in the future. But that never happens, does it? Everything just starts piling up and next thing you know, you have hardly any storage space left so you end up stacking books on the floor and your mum comes in and starts nagging on about how uncomfortable she feels looking at your room and how a girl's room shouldn't look like a pigs sty blah blah blah blah blah (yes I know that doesn't make sense -)

My mum wasn't the only reason I decided to clean my room though. I lost my USB cable for my hard-drive for a couple of days now, and honestly, no matter where I looked, I COULD NOT FIND IT. I had a feeling it was somewhere around my bed, so I search through all these bags of stuff that was in the gap between my bed and wall.


I didn't find my cable, but I did find other interesting things - 

My sister is a troll.

My sister found out about my formspring account, and decided to ask me a couple of random questions.

This is why I don't accept her friend request on facebook.

Bye to my baby.

Today, I got a haircut. I haven't had one since February.

I've had the same hairstyle since Yr11. 
I have 5 different shades of brown in my hair.

My hair was so dead from all the dying. I was so fed up with the dryness, the split ends - so I decided to cut it short.

My head feels so much lighter now.

Washing my hair takes half the time.
My neck is cold ...

Change is good right? 

What do you think of my new hairstyle?

So much hair, goneee....

I don't think I suit short hair. It looks so weird, but people will get used to it.